Some..

Sometimes, I get annoyed without even knowing
But my feelings for you haven’t changed
Maybe I’m the weird one, I thought
As I struggled by myself

While tossing and turning alone in an empty room
The TV plays reruns of yesterday’s drama
As I hold my phone that doesn’t ring until I sleep

These days, it feels like you’re mine, it seems like you’re mine but not
It feels like I’m yours, it seems like I’m yours but not
What are we? I’m confused, don’t be aloof
It feels like we’re lovers, it seems like we’re lovers but not
Whenever you see me, you act so vague to me
These days, I hate hearing that I’m just like a friend

I want to open my eyes to your text every morning
I want to fall asleep with your voice at the end of the day
On the weekends, I want to hug you in front of a lot of people as if I’m showing off

These days, it feels like you’re mine, it seems like you’re mine but not
It feels like I’m yours, it seems like I’m yours but not
These days, I hate hearing that I’m just like a friend

I don’t like you, don’t like you these days
But I only have you, I only have you
Clearly draw the line for me
Don’t pull out but confess your love to me

Pretending that we’re just friends, acting like we’re lovers, don’t do that
The more I think about it, I get more curious about your real feelings
Girl you’re so ambiguous, I can’t do anything or maybe I’m expecting a miracle, lotto
I want a clear sign but I forget all about it when I see your smile

These days, it feels like you’re mine, it seems like you’re mine but not
It feels like I’m yours, it seems like I’m yours but not
Don’t just laugh like you don’t know and stop this now, be real with me
Don’t put me in your heart and look elsewhere
Why don’t you stop acting like you don’t know when you do know?
Don’t give excuses that you’re tired but hurry and tell me, I love you

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  • 1 day ago

2 guys bothering my mind, one that i love (probably) one that was in my heart for awhile.

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  • 1 day ago

happy or hurt?

who’s not happy if someone you loves tell you they want you even i don’t understand his mean.

last week in one event that we made, i tried to not to get close but made it not awkward anymore between us but end up more awkward in silent. damn i hate that, i knew it’s going to be more and more awkward between us. but i keep trying..

in the end we both end up quite each other no interaction no action. he sang in front of us, and his girl came to see him, but he seems cold to her. in my point of view, but still I got jealous. well but i don’t wanna be hello kitty between them so i keep being myself, didn’t do anything but keep it for myself. in photo session he stood up beside me (but in the back) but i keep calm, nothing special between us i guess. until the photo shoot done and i hug my friend tight one of my senior, a guy look at us with strange look ( usual) until he call my friend ” ****, mau” and he pointed. i thought it wasn’t me but she said it’s me.

i told this to my close friend she said “that guy keeps his relation cause feel sorry to that girl, he seems not love her anymore. but it’s only my opinion.”

well if its true then what he did just hurt 3 person, his self, mine and her. why he didn’t be honest to his self. if he keeps doing that can make it more worse. but if its, if not what can i do. i just stay quite as usual.

but about what he said, i feel weird. happy? more like hurt so deep. why did he do that to me? is he loves me or not?

if you ask me what i wanna do, i just want he to be honest to his feeling and please stop joking around cause i truly love you.

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  • 4 days ago

believe in one true love, allah

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  • 2 weeks ago

Funny, today you ask about me and the next day you ignore me..

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  • 2 weeks ago

bodoh..

apakabar bulan

kau baik baik saja kah?

apakabar bintang

kau tak kesepian kah?

apakabar matahari

kau tak lelah kah?

saat ini aku sedang teluka

aku sedang kesepian

dan aku sedang lelah.

aku harap kalian bahagia

tak seperti aku yang sakit karena kebodohan mencintai.

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  • 2 weeks ago

miss someone like you is like write down word miss on sand and wind take it away in minute. mean you never realize it, how miss i am with your eyes when look at me, your smile, your words for me. i hate being like this, you so cold to me like I’m not there like I’m noting but little dust.

the truth you keep hurting me like this, the truth you keep adding scars in my heart. I HATE YOU!! if i could i would kill you right now.

huhhh funny is for almost a week you asking about me then when i came back where were you? no word out from your mouth, no hello or calling my name like before.

sorry if i add all the fault to you but the truth is you change into someone i don’t know, someone i hate.

thank you for your sweet memories..

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  • 2 weeks ago

me

crazy, i never thought about it.

stupid, i never know it

careless, i never realize it

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  • 3 weeks ago

Grow up..

one night my mom cried, she cried so hard until she breathless. she talked about future, my own life, having boyfriend marry someone have my own little family. she so worried about it, about i;m leaving her. sad for me saw my mom cry so hard like that but a little bit funny cause I’m not yet think about it, but now i did.

i know for a mother seeing her child grow and be someone then get married leave her is hard, but life must go on. but me in this side same as my mom, not ready yet to face that I’m going 20 and having my own life as someone girl then someone wife then a mother. for a while i thought ” i still have a long time.” but then i realize my time getting closer to that future. well I’m freaking out about future ” how if this? how if that?”.

but this little girl must to grow up, face the world, face the future and face truth that she already grow up,

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  • 3 weeks ago

MAROON 5 - "Maps"

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  • 3 weeks ago

i thought he didn’t miss me but my friend told me he ask about me, its make me miss u chany…

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  • 3 weeks ago

Besame Mucho Angklung vers.

Gentra Seba
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  • 3 weeks ago
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